Buried Under Weight – What’s Behind The Name [Info]
POST UPDATED 12/16/2017
Buried Under Weight was the result of how I felt at certain period in my life. It was also a nod to my love I have for weight lifting. Though, I am not a pro weight-lifter or an amateur, I do enjoy a workout that involves more weight-lifting than traditional cardio (treadmill). I’ve always enjoyed sweating during a workout…that’s just me.
Let me explain —
At the age of ten, I developed a love for weight lifting. It started from me watching my Dad bench press, along with other exercises, but I’m most fond of the bench press. Watching my Dad bench press made me want to weight lift and I did, not professionally but personally. As a child/teen/young adult, I don’t think I actually realized how nicely formed my body was because there were those people in my life that made me self-conscious.
Now, with life experiences under my belt, I fully understand that at that particular time of my life, my body and I were best friends and I treated it so. For now, I’ve made the decision to return to my former way of thinking. For years, while “enjoying” my life, the pounds slowly added on while I was becoming more settled into my adult life. Before I realized how bad it was, I had reached a size 20 pant size. Trust, it was not my proudest moment.
I also took time out to realize that I am a stress eater, especially during times like school finals. At a point in my life where I became a single Mom of three children, definitely not in my plans, I slowly stopped thinking of myself. Suddenly, everything became about my children and what I needed to do to survive.
And it was HARD.
So much was spent blaming and shaming, that it led to self-doubt, and at times self-pity. None of this helped with the wellness part of my life. I was a train moving constantly with no time to stop. I needed to be the best Mom to avoid harsh judgments from outsiders, and I failed miserably.
Then one day —
There was a new phase of my life looming near and I made a decision — SINK OR SWIM, FIGHT OR DIE INTERNALLY.
Well, I wasn’t ready to die so I fought. I changed everything and it wasn’t only a physical change but emotional and mental changes as well. It wasn’t all done overnight, but it started with forgiveness.
Buried Under Weight can be applied to many aspects of life as it has my own. I don’t shy away from the negatives but rather, I learn from them to avoid thE same pitfalls. Motherhood, weight loss, relationships, career decisions, academics, etc.,are all weights and I believe it is our choice whether we choose to bury ourselves with the positive weights or bad weights.
I choose POSITIVITY!
Share in the comments if you have experienced life-changing moments.
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